Drama

It seems that whatever i do to try to help i end up epicly failing, and making it worse. it just seems like there isnt a purpose for every tear i cry and i dont now why. i wish God will just take me under his wing and guard me from all evil, but it seems almost impossible. i tried one of the only rescues for feeling like this (shopping) and it didnt work sadly :( so now i will most likely go and cry myself asleep with those purposeless tears. :,(